My Poetic Expressions

 

Summary from the Book Madhurya, the Rasa of Sweetness

 

In this summary, we present comments and descriptions of my own poetry that is part of the book. Specifically, there are comments on “Satiating Me with Prema”, "River of Love and Devotion", "Love for Krishna" and "Vipralambha (Separation without Being Separated)".

In "Satiating Me with Prema (Pure Love for God)," I express the countless impressions of Keshava’s love that overwhelm me. This love is limitless and unexpected, where the soul, bound by transient attachments, cannot fully comprehend the depth of prema-bhakti. Only in these states does the soul awaken to its eternal relationship with the Lord, realizing that in madhura-rasa, Shri Krishna’s attention brings infinite transcendental pleasure.  

He fills life in an instant without beginning or end, immersing me in Higher Consciousness that contains everything. The soul then experiences an infinite attraction to Him, the source of all existence.

In "River of Love and Devotion", I describe that my relationship with Shri Hari flows like a blazing river. The soul drowns in its waters, and the importance of mortal life fades, leaving only the desire to remain in this divine whirlwind, full of love and bliss.  

This relationship sustains me, carrying me beyond time, dissolving my mortal self. It grows infinitely, without limits, independent of time and place. It fills me with everlasting fullness, making me aware of Krishna’s presence in every aspect of my life. He makes me feel what cannot be grasped by common reasoning — endless, ever-deepening emotions through transcendental pastimes.  

His love is the essence of my existence, expanding from my heart, radiating into the world, and filling every experience with satisfaction. This Conjugal Relationship with Shri Hari is everywhere — in nature, the stars, and every living being. It is eternal, indestructible, and inalienable, uniting form with consciousness.  

In "Satiating Me with Prema," I also describe Krishna as the pure Light that illuminates consciousness. I report that His ways of revealing Himself to the soul can never be fully captured in words or images. Only direct contact, through divine vision, allows someone to see the infinite beauty of the Supreme Person.  

What I see, therefore, when I am with Krishna is all that I want to see. My heart clings to every thought of Him, and I cry with the longing to leave for His eternal abode. Yet, while living in this contradictory world, I search for Him in everything I do, begging Him to always stay nearby.

In "Love for Krishna", I say that nothing pleases me more than to love Him, the Source of all Love, and to lose myself in His embrace.  But it’s a good thing that nothing can stop me from adoring Him — He is the object and mechanism of worship. He contains Himself and everyone who loves Him. I also write about what fills me in every moment, as Krishna touches me, deepening our connection in ways that belong only to us.  

Through this poetry, I express that to be with Krishna is to be with God in His Absolute Personality. He reveals endless dimensions of Himself, containing every interaction. And I confess that no one needs to ask me how I know that it’s Him with whom I am relating myself, because He holds me in moments of ecstasy and torpor. Afterall, my experience with Krishna is eternal. The eternity of my bond with Him leads me to think, feel, and express the loss of myself in His (my) madhurya, diving into its serene, unconditional depths where no other need remains.  

Krishna is everything, and I lack nothing. He moves the world, and I live only to serve Him, receiving and reciprocating His endless love. I share these words with those who long to understand, hoping they too may taste this divine nectar.  

The Lord is the origin, the destination, and the giver of infinite love. His names inspire me never to let go, for meeting Him again and again has ended my separation. The distance is over, and life is illuminated.  

“I belong to You forever, my Lord”.  

While experiencing full sharanagati, I cannot help but think of Krishna every day, in every situation. Time and circumstances fade, but my love remains.  

Then, in "Vipralambha (Separation without Being Separated)", I express the immense void this creates. The distance heightens the longing, and the world loses meaning. I know Krishna is in everything, but the soul, clouded by illusion, forgets His presence.  

That’s why living in this world means being surrounded by those far from Him, yet He alone can free every soul from confusion and purify the heart. I care for nothing else and only wish to meet Krishna, pleading for Him to leave me no choice but Himself — even if it means giving up easier paths.  

The love I feel is unmatched, indescribable, and impossible to sustain for anything but Krishna. I cannot forget Him, nor do I wish to. I surrender to the emotions that overwhelm my heart, craving for more impressions of Him. These feelings belong to a time when I struggled to perceive Krishna amidst material life, but now my perception has expanded to see Him in all things.  

Questions/Answers

Dialogue Between V d and Guru Ma Shri

 

1. GuruMa in true Sharnagati the pure devotees do not worry in whatever bhava the Lord accepts them, but I really desire that Krishna accepts me in the mood of a consort. Though I know any relationship with Him will be completely fulfilling. What shall I do? Should I stop desiring a particular bhava with Krishna?

You can wish within yourself, opening your heart, however, to the experiences that flow to you from Krishna's will. As you free yourself from the webs of material illusion, transcendental experiences will become more evident. Your expanding freedom will direct you towards the eternal bhava that belongs to you, and you will no longer doubt its trustworthiness and depth.

 

2. GuruMa you told me that you give Gopi Bhava Mantra only in sanyaas diksha. I do not know whether that will be possible for me but I wanted to know for those who do not take sanyaas and hence do not get Gopi Bhava Mantra can they still get siddha Gopi deha and bhava in this life or after they leave their body and be with Krishna as His consort?

Getting siddha deha is the fruit of Krishna's mercy, in this life or after leaving the body. This can happen through the Guru (Ma) or not. In the case of my initiations, the Madhurya Bhava mantra can only be received through sanyaas diksha, but this doesn't prevent pure experiences prior to the mantra from being expressed in the triangulation between Krishna, the disciple and myself (as Guru Ma). Regarding being with Krishna as His consort, not everyone will have such an experience, because in the divine lila there are different ways of relating to Him, other than conjugal.